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I felt you there.

21 02 2014



The other night when I was sleeping, I felt something jump on my bed, but miss…. then a few seconds later I felt that something jump on the bed and make it.  In my half sleep daze I chuckled, remembering how you never got on my bed the first try. (all four or all three legs) I sheepishly assumed it was just Dodger, but then realized he was sleeping on the other side of my legs, no where near where I had felt the subtle pounce.  Then I felt it.  I felt your warm fur against my cheek, I heard your purr.  And then I cried.  I cried and cried.

I reached down and patted Dodger on the head when I felt him stir with a bit of concern, but then he went back to sleep.  I just laid there wanting this moment (no matter how crazy it may seem) to last longer than I knew it would.  I wanted you to be back, alive and well.  In one piece, bright eyed and feisty.  I know that will never be.  And it hurts me every single day that I wake up.  I miss you.  I miss you so very much.  It hurts me to think that there are people out there who think I never truly cared for you.  That you meant nothing to me, but to be a “cat” in my life at one point.

You were my little guy.  You were my Valentine.  You were my confidant. People just don’t understand.

In fact.  I feel incredibly special that YOU chose ME. that YOU loved ME, unconditionally.

Love Mommy



2 responses to “I felt you there.”

    21 02 2014
      Michelle (03:41:03) :     Reply

    Definitely was Salem. He was letting you know he is ok. He is always with you Kendi remember that. He will be back he just knew you needed him at that moment.

    Michelle & Angel Sassy

    23 02 2014
      jerry (18:13:33) :     Reply

    I know the feeling, it comes and goes when you least expect it. But that was definitely Salem telling you that you CAN go on, you are stronger than you think Kendi.

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